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why can't i trust people with what i have to say or have to do. why do i push people away! why can't i get over this fear of bing unloved. whay can't i let God just do what he wants. I'm scared! I'm scared of getting hurt one more time. i'm scared of people not wanting to hear me. to be rjected again and again. i guess i said thats it, so i quite trying! so now i'm here one more time in the box i am in. i hate this box!!! i want it just to be gone but i can't get it to go away with just me . i need you God. I want to trust you . i want to talk to you . i want you not me . take my fear God i don't want it anymore.