Change

All of my life everything has changed good, bad, hard, and ugly mostly hard for me. I have never liked change because everything was so hard for me when I was little and that’s why I really don't like change now. It has always not been good for me. one thing God just showed me tonight is that I let fear predict what I do and how I act even tonight I was starting to play a game at a friends house got freaked and messed up and didn't finish my turn. I know it may seem silly but I do that a lot of time and at everything. If I get freaked and can't do it right then and there I just give up. That’s not a good place to be I know. It all goes to when I was little and things that happened and this fear was instilled into me that I don't want. And the fear of change is holding me back so much right now I just realized it tonight. So fear has got to go!!! No matter what! How do you handle fear? Well I am going to find out how to get out of my fearfulness with Gods help!