the world in a different light! Its so beautiful from here. 

Beauty from pain

Beauty from pain is the new title of the superchic[k] cd coming out really soon. the title is the story of my life right now. the pain of all my past is ending and the beauty is coming into the light. i had to go through this to get to where my beauty can shine and only God get the glory for this. not alot of peopel know my whole story and all i have been through. theres no way I could have gotten to where i am with out God. he was right by my side and i didn't even know it. i was hidden under something and God kept pulling all the many layers of whatever was over me. now i see where i am and kinda where he is taking me but i'm not scared i am excited about it. he saved me with no Q asked. he did it becuse he loved me. not for me to do anything or to say the right words . he just loves me. I love him for being there when i didn't even know. i have never really know anyone to love so much and i am seeing it more and more as i get closer to God how much he loves me and whould do anything for me. its just really cool to know how much he cares and he wants the best for us his kid.

Gossip makes me mad!!!

Get over yourself
you with your prideful words
sure you think you could do better
so you bash everyone around
but did you ever think it's what God wanted
what went down was all in his plan

so get over yourself
God can't use a prideful people
get over yourself
its not how or why it happened
just get over yourself

ya people say and do things that you think are stupid
but who's place it is to judge
its not yours or mine but its God
so stop talking and listen

get over yourself
its not yours to judge
get over yourself
stop talking smack and putting people down
get over yourself
all of this is bigger than you
put your trust in God
not in our feeble words and actions
speak what is good not evil of one another
By Beth Gratcyk:0)

funny

i think its funny. just looking back over the past year or two or more. God has so set me for so many things good and bad but in it all getting my self to look inside of me and see what needs changed. I know i have worked though alot of what needs changed but there is so much that God is showing me that i never know what there. its so cool to look over your life see where I came from where I am now and what is to come. i am excited about what is to come! ya it was be very hard sometimes but i know my Abba will never leave me. he stuck by me this far why would he leave now its just getting better!

the road of life 

cry

why is it that when you cry it tastes all salty? just one of those silly Q i will have to go look up.:0)

God is digging deep.

God is finding hurts and wounds i never knew were there. it really stink. No, it really sucks. some times i just want to quit but i know i don't want to stay this way so God have your way but help me with the pain of you sewing me back up and putting the bones in the right places. I know i can't hanld this all on my own and i have tryed. i need you more than ever befor and i don't want to push you away anymore.

:0(

why can't i trust people with what i have to say or have to do. why do i push people away! why can't i get over this fear of bing unloved. whay can't i let God just do what he wants. I'm scared! I'm scared of getting hurt one more time. i'm scared of people not wanting to hear me. to be rjected again and again. i guess i said thats it, so i quite trying! so now i'm here one more time in the box i am in. i hate this box!!! i want it just to be gone but i can't get it to go away with just me . i need you God. I want to trust you . i want to talk to you . i want you not me . take my fear God i don't want it anymore.